Struggling Sanity

We all have heard routines are healthy, but they can also become tedious if not balanced properly. I am a stay-at-home mom, and often experience boredom and dissatisfaction toward my daily routine. Feelings of dread and anxiety for the mundane tasks of the day can cast a gray cloud over me quicker than the day began.

A stagnant lifestyle or lack of direction can flood your mind’s eye with visions of hopelessness. I often feel like I don't contribute any means of support for my family. Even when wearing my super mom cape, I can shut down and become lost behind a fog of self-pity and defeat. This often leaves me feeling useless to my children; that I may be bringing more strife to their adult selves than I am nurturing the delicate beings they are now. In this state one cannot see the future moments waiting and the opportunities that will lead there.

For me, every day is a struggle to be a kind, wise, nurturing mother, and keep my "BPD" under control. While my girls are just learning what feelings are, I am constantly fighting off an overload, trying to prevent myself from showing weakness or inflicting any emotional hurt to my children. While some days can be better than others, I try to live in the present and be grateful for every second we have together. Whether they’re learning a life lesson, or I am, we get to grow as a family.

Mindful Minute:

How would you rate your parenting? (the scale is up to you)
What are the reasons you came to this rating?
What are your strengths? Weakness?
What do you want to change the most about yourself to help the family?
Do you believe an improved family dynamic can be achieved? Why or why not?

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